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Despair
by Julie-Marie Eckert
© June 21, 2001
I sit here at this machine feeling so cold and alone.
The tears fall uncontrollably, burning my flesh as they roll down my face.
I have just talked to you, so you would think that I would be happy.
My emotions are cruel to me tonight.
I close my eyes and try to focus on one single thought, but it’s no use.
I cannot concentrate on anything but this pain deep inside.
My heart aches for you with a depth I have never felt before.
I look down at my chest, for there surely must be a knife in it.
I am finding it hard to see the words that are coming from me, so I close my eyes and feel my way.
I let my heart speak its truth.
When I first met you I never imagined a love like this.
I am feeling a pain deeper than I’ve ever felt now that we are apart.
I know that it is only for a short while.
And I know you had this commitment before we fell in love.
I can’t help but feeling that you left me alone and in pain.
I know that you are there dying inside also, and crying yourself to sleep.
My heart reaches out to yours across the miles.
I think of you every second, of every hour of every day.
You are never out of my mind, or out of my heart.
Everything reminds me of you, every song, every feel, every scent.
I listen to "our song" a hundred times a day, and I smile, and I cry.
I can still hear your sweet voice singing every word to me.
I can still see the love in your eyes as you sing to me.
I yearn to hear your soothing, loving voice telling me "I love you".
Mixed emotions are running rampant through me.
The are confusing, and are tearing me in two.
A part of me is so happy that I will be holding you in my arms this time tomorrow.
The other part is crying inside, knowing that I have to let you go at the end of the day.
One side of me wants to hear all about your life there, and how happy it makes you.
The other side wants no words exchanged at all.
I sit here in my own sorrow, and feel as if there is a bag over my head, and I cannot breathe.
I am in total, and utter despair.
For Nadine, without you I cannot breathe.
~~~
The Flame
by Julie-Marie Eckert
© June 21, 2001
My entire life I have grown up with stories of true love, and happily ever after.
Every childhood memory is about forever.
Falling in love and getting married were the ways of life.
I have longed for that my entire existence.
So many relationships I have been in always searching for "the one."
I have always known my soul mate was out there waiting.
Longing to feel the burning of the fire within I search in all the wrong places.
It keeps me safe from ever really falling.
I have always wanted to fall deeply in love, and give my heart away.
I also make sure that, that was exactly what doesn’t happen.
Too afraid of getting burned, I keep my heart hidden.
Always watching from afar, I stay protected.
Trying to seduce me many times, the flame burns bright.
I am tempted many times, but never do I walk into it.
Then I see her.
She stands before, and the fire surrounding her burns brighter than I have ever seen.
The flames mesmerize me, and I can’t take my eyes off her.
Her eyes seduce me, and crush my will.
She is the flame I have always wanted, but fought against.
My heart is in my throat, and I am scared to death.
I should run away from her before it’s too late.
What won’t my feet take me far away from her?
I am frozen by her, as she moves towards me.
The look in her eyes is one of pure love and tenderness.
I want it so badly, but I am petrified of letting go.
She sits down beside me, and my body catches fire from the inside.
I manage to keep her at arm length all day long.
Do I have the strength to fight this into the night?
The sun has gone to sleep, and the moon is in its glory.
My strength has never been weaker in my life.
I look deeply into her eyes, and give up this futile resistance.
I embrace her, and blindly walk into the flame.
For Nadine, you are the flame of forever.
~~~
A Man
by Julie-Marie Eckert
© June 21, 2001
He has been in my life from the beginning.
The blood that courses through his veins is also in mine.
I close my eyes and remember playing side by side when we were children.
He was just a little boy then.
My whole life’s happiness, he has always protected.
We share a bond that I don’t think even we understand.
When we were children he used me as a football-practicing target.
Did he know back then that he was making me stronger?
We never seemed to argue much when we were growing up.
All I remember is how I wanted to spend time with him.
He was there for me in high school when everything was new.
He took me under his wing and made me feel at home.
I remember the day he moved away.
It seemed as though my world had ended, and oh how I cried.
I made it through the last three years of school without him.
He always called, and sent me beautiful birthday wishes.
The day came when we got the call that told us he was getting married.
My heart sunk as I thought I was losing him forever.
I have a very vivid memory of him walking down the isle.
He looked right at me, and I saw that scared little boy once more.
I cried when I hugged him for I thought that I had lost him.
He was starting a family of his own.
Where did that leave me then?
Was that bond we shared all those years strong enough to hold?
The years have passed so quickly, and we have kept in touch.
I don’t get to see him as often as I would like.
I have come to realize that I have gained much more than I have lost.
My heart still misses him, and tears fall at times without warning.
To some people a brother is someone you have to see at family functions.
For me, they are empty without him.
So many things in our lives have changed over the years.
It’s hard to believe that little boy has grown into a man.
For Charlie, the little boy who has grown into a man.
~~~
Who Am I?
by Jennifer
© October 6, 2001
Who Am I?
I often ask this of myself,
I’ve lied about who and what I am my whole life,
I’ve gotten so good at lying, even I have believed my lies.
I have done things to please other people,
I have said things because it was what others have wanted to hear.
I have felt what society has said I should feel.
I am 26 years old and am just now starting to be honest with myself.
I am just now feeling a weight lift off my shoulders.
I am not going to lie anymore.
I cannot lie anymore,
I cannot pretend anymore,
I need to live for me, I need to be me.
I am a woman,
I am a strong, sensual, proud woman,
I am a gay woman!
This is what I have been hiding from all my life,
Those three words,
I am gay.
I am no longer afraid or ashamed,
I can no longer hide behind my lies,
I have to be honest, I have to be me.
I am only hurting myself by lying
I need to live life for me,
I can only be happy if I am honest to myself.
I can do this,
I am strong,
I am proud,
I am woman,
I am gay!
~~~
IF ONLY YOU KNEW
by Mindy Shultz
© October 13, 2001
If only you knew what your smile does to me,
how your touch makes my heart skip a beat.
If only you knew how much you mean to me,
and how much I really care.
If only you knew what thoughts run through my mind all hours of the night,
or how you never leave my dreams.
If only you knew how you make me feel,
and how I never want to let you go.
If only you knew how much I love you...
sincerely and completely,
and how I would do anything for you
to keep you in my arms,
near me at all times.
...Oh, if only you knew.....
~~~
GIVE ME A CHANCE
by Mindy Shultz
© October 13, 2001
I can be your shoulder to cry on,
an escape from the world around you,
the one you call when you need advice,
and someone to dry your tears.
I can be your friend,
your safe haven,
your dreams,
and your love.
I can be the one who holds you
when no one else will.
Someone who sticks up for you
even when you're wrong,
and the only person to come in
when the whole world goes out.
I can be there
to help you up when you fall,
to heal your wounds,
and to take your sorrows away.
I can be your one,
your only,
your true and passionate love.
I can be all this and more..
Your hopes, dreams, and wishes combined.
But only....if you give me a chance.
~~~
THE DEPTHS OF MY SOUL
by Mindy Shultz
© October 13, 2001
Did I ever tell you how you live in me?
Every waking moment, and even in my dreams.
I cant escape this feeling now, I know it must be true.
For every time I close my eyes, all I see is you.
Your smile seems to follow me, your eyes cant be dismissed.
I watch you from a distance and my mind wanders amidst.
Do you know that late at night when no one is around,
I think of how it could be if my love was ever found?
I'd die a hundred trillion deaths to have you in my arms.
I'd hold you close and make sure you were far away from harm.
I know my love will not be seen and never will you know,
just how much you mean to me and how I cant you so.
all I can do is watch and dream and hope that some day soon,
you might have a feeling that could make you love me too.
Until that day I'll sit and wait, yearning for your touch.
The only thing I know is that, my dear, I love you much.
~~~
Desire
by Lindsay Clark
© December 7, 2001
To fall in love, in love you fall, falling hopelessly,
drowning in my own head my own thoughts my own desires. . .
the desires that I am afraid to speak about
the desires I keep closeted in my head. . .
the desires that have consumed me, or maybe I have consumed myself.
even my dream world has consumed me. . .
desire a desire so strong that it follows me everywhere. . .
no where to run no where to hide. . . no where. . .
nothing can stop these emotions. . . they flow so effortlessly. . .
effortlessly flowing through my soul. . .
my soul is slowly drowning in the prison I have created. . .
with no chance of escape I must face my desires. . .
I must embrace them or hide from myself for forever. . .
forever hiding. . . who am I kidding I cannot hide. . .
I cannot run. . . that's not my habit not my way. . .
so I turn and I face desire. . .
I look it in the face and I am speechless. . .
caught in desires eyes. . . I look away. . .
I gain my composure again and I look up at desire. . .
desire already knows. . .
~~~
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